Me, please?
Just when I was feeling pretty content with being single, something just had to go wrong to make me feel like I'm missing something. It's not so much that a particular person has been bothering me these past few days (and it's not that I'm in a rush to get into a relationship or anything), but I guess the infectious disease of loneliness has been slowly creeping into my system again. It would be nice to feel cared about and cared for. A butterfly or two wouldn't hurt, now would it?
Anyways, I've been browsing Tumblrs & Blogspots and came across these quotes that made me rethink my strategy on how to handle this "crisis":
"Dont be the girl who needs a man, be the girl who a man needs."
"Wait for the one who deserves you."
I guess I've never thought about it that way..you know, actually waiting? I'm kinda the type who'll seize the moment, but I'm guessing I have bad aim/timing as far as relationships go? I'll admit, I've been a serial dater, so it's been different (to say the least) to have A LOT of personal space. Let me reemphasize, "A LOT." Even then, I don't know if I'm ready just yet, but the next time around, I definitely want to start right and if it has to end (God willing, it won't), then I want to do that right also. I'm not proud of a lot of things I've done, I live with regrets, and I'd gladly change my past if I could, but I have no choice but to live and learn (or sulk, I suppose), so in the meantime, I'd like to figure out what I can do to better myself. I think my biggest struggle is having high expectations (and not to make it sound like an excuse), but it's only because I'd be willing to do the same for that person? Is that really wrong?
Regardless of all this relationship nonsense, I still try to count my blessings and keep my head up since things could be much worse. Good health, a happy family, the best friends anyone could ever ask for..a great guy would be nice to add to the list, but I have everything that I've ever needed and I couldn't be happier..once I remember to reflect.
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| My one and only ~ Tohchan |
